Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Drug tests, drama and drivebys...

I had my first ever drug test yesterday!  It was traumatic or maybe I'm being dramatic :)  One of my best friends, Amy, would always say that I'm going to die when I'm a mom, because I don't do bodily fluids.  She's right that I don't deal well with them, but I'm sure I'll be able to handle it when I'm a mom.  Once, Grandma was in the hospital and I was helping the nurse change her.  As the nurse swung the underwear thing underneather her, the side went in the toilet and splashed it right into my mouth!  Oh.my.gosh!  It was horrible!

So, back to the drug test... The whole procedure was strange.  Having to lock my stuff in the lockbox in the bathroom was weird.  Like I would be carrying around someone else's urine.  Sick!  Crazy people that would do that!  Anyways, that's done and over with.  Thank goodness!

Remember being in highschool and absolutely loving someone?  You had the biggest crush on this person, and you just wanted to be in their presence, even if that meant driving on their street.  Don't deny it!  I rode in enough cars with girls doing that very thing, and I can't tell you the number of times we drove right past MY someone's house.  So dumb!  What is the point?!  You know it still happens, though.

Well, nowadays you don't even need to get in your car to do a driveby.  You can just log on to your facebook account and do a "virtual" driveby.  Just checkin' things out!  Interesting thought!  I've mentioned before how annoying it is to be talking to someone, and say "well, I just did_________" and they're like, "yeah, I know.  I saw it on facebook..."  So, in the last few months I've slowed down my posts about my personal life.  I'll post quotes, links to great messages, links to songs that have touched me at the moment (and I'm sure if you're paying attention, and really know what's going on with me, those things seem to be sharing my personal life, but for those facebook friends and other friends and family that hardly know me or talk to me, what does it matter?)  Anyways, some things people post are freakin' hilarious and some are so inappropriate, some are fabulous and some are questionable.  Like for example, a guy I went to highschool with (or his wife) posted a picture of him, with a poster of details about his biological parents, and he found both of them and a plethora of family members in just a few days!  Amazing!  Then there's the girl that is now in college and thinks everyone needs to know the exact calories she eats, every meal, and how many hours she puts in at the gym, every three hours of the day.  Really?!  Get outside of yourself.  This last example is of something that should not be put out there for everyone to see.  A recently married woman I know, is now going through a divorce.  Apparently, he decided they're better just being friends.  How do I even know this?  It's right there for everyone to see, which 63 comments followed by whoever wanted to.  It's sad, but so not anyone else's business!

There you go!  Enough rantings for today :)

Hope it's a great day!

Friday, February 22, 2013

Articles and stuff...

Interesting read on dating right here.  The lady that wrote this article came and did a Monday night devotional for the midsingles about a year ago.  I think I wrote about it then.  There were some points that were really good, but there were things that were just plain obnoxious.  It was so fake! People were rehearsing on each other in the social afterwards, and it was hilarious to observe!  There were some fun things every once in a while that she gave of "he has interest in you if he does..." and vice versa.  It was funny to see some of those very things happening, even with one guy that had come in afterwards.  It was funny!

It's funny, because I'm not one of those that follow her, or her website, but every once in a while there's an article that speaks to me or affects me in some way.  Like this one, for example, was sent to me once by a guy.  He searched it out one night after we had had a less than wonderful conversation, and posted it on his facebook page.  I thought the timing was funny, but he couldn't have possibly posted it in any relationship to our conversation.  Well, a few minutes later he sent it to my inbox.  It fit him to the T, and I could see myself in the girl in the article.   It was interesting.  Oh, and here's  the article for the women that are in these kinds of relationships.

Now back to the original article up there.  The "I'm anxious..." feeling fits me to the T, at least in my last relationship. Since that relationship, I've been confused about what I was feeling, if I was reading my feelings correctly, not that it matters anymore, but I was second guessing a lot of it.  So, when I saw this title on facebook, I wanted to read it to see if any of my questions could be answered.  Let's say upfront, I was the initial ender to the past relationship, but it sort of drug on and on until it dwindled.  Anyways,  I really liked the scriptural references in this article!

All of these experiences, whether they're happy or hurtful, are all teaching me many things!  I'm grateful for the lessons.  I know that we have to feel pain and agony in order to understand and feel the greatness and glory!  Wouldn't life be so boring if everything was the same?!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

An interesting question...

Today I was visiting my cousin in the St. George hospital, and as we were walking the hallways, she asked me if I want to get married.  I thought it was an interesting question, and probably one that people are curious about. 

I remember back in the day, a relative of mine, every birthday I had would say, "I was married by the time I was such and such age...," then each additional year it was... "I was married and had 1 kid..." then on and on until it was 5 kids.  Then one day she asked me what she could do to help me.  She wasn't the only one who said these kind of things, lots of loved ones did, church members, people I hardly knew...  People were always saying things like that.  One lady told me I'd be "a good mommy in heaven... someday."   I have to admit that comments like that used to cripple me.  I struggled with it.  I saw that people saw my value as whether I was married or not married.  So, for a long time that's how I based how I valued myself.  I may have graduated from college, run a $1.5 million shoe dept., played the piano for someone amazing, been the musical director at a children's theater, become an interior designer, etc...  What did any of that matter? I wasn't a wife or a mom.  

Well, life has moved forward.  I opened my own business, I've taught over 50 students how to play the piano, and as time has moved forward, I found me.  I may not be a wife or a mom, yet, but there's so much more than that.  Becoming a wife and a mom are still my ultimate goal, and what I want more than anything. 

I'm a daughter of Heavenly Father.  I'm a daughter of Sandy and Colleen Nicholes.  I'm the sister of Collin, and sister-in-law of Krystal.  I am so lucky to get to be the aunt to three amazing nephews, and one amazing niece!  I'm a granddaughter, a niece, a cousin.  I'm an interior designer.  I'm a piano teacher.  I'm a musician.  I'm an artist.  I'm creative.  I'm a leader.  I love people.  I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  I love children.  I love to serve.  I'm a business owner.  I'm a woman.  I'm a woman of faith.  I'm a learner.  I'm a reader.  I'm a teacher. 

So, the answer to her question is yes I want to get married.  Apparently, it's not in my control and it's not in my timing, but when it's right it will happen.