Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Changes

The last few months have been full of pending changes and weird transitions. My emotions have been all over the place! One day I'd be so anxious for it to be done, and the next I'd be dreading it.

As you probably know I've been leading this group of MidSingles, ages 31-45, of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints for about 2 1/2 years. It has been an amazing period in my life full of great experiences and extremely trying experiences. All of which have made me into who I am today. I've been released from my job there, and I've had mixed feelings about it, but I know that it's time, and there's something new ahead for me. I just don't know what, and that is part of the mixed emotions.

The transition has been going from what I've been working on, to being merged into a new MidSingles ward, which is an answer to many prayers. I was out to dinner with a friend the other night, and we were talking about these transitions. He came from a different ward, and hadn't participated in my stuff before. He kept saying he didn't even know where I was coming from, and doesn't fully understand my emotions. I've been able to be involved with so many midsingles with various situations and backgrounds, that these transitions worry me for the ones that are feeling left out.

I've had a lot of time to reflect on things that have happened over the last few years, and I'm thankful for that. Between two Sundays I saw every guy I've dated in the last three years. Weird! Through that I was able to reflect on the changes that I'd gone through because of them. I found myself being grateful for all the experiences. Even though they didn't all bring positive changes with them, I'm grateful for the experiences.

Anyways, I'm grateful for all I've learned and the many wonderful people I've gotten to know! Looking forward to what's ahead! I'm sure it won't be easy, but it'll be a ride!

Monday, March 11, 2013

Change is inevitable, right?

When I quit my job at San Francisco Design in 2008 I had multiple reasons.  There was the fact that there was nowhere to grow.  The fact that the owner was a beast, and I could say was discriminating, because of my religion.  Or the staff that would drink and do tarot cards all day long.  Let's just say it was not a fun place to be.  You know, people can do what they want, but drinking and all the other stuff on the clock was so unprofessional!  However, due to that uncomfortable situation, I read and studied the scriptures more than I ever had before, and my testimony grew in leaps and bounds.  So, for that, I could say I was thankful! 

As the time for me to quit was drawing nearer, I kept getting more uncomfortable being there, and knew that there was a big change coming.  I remember driving home from there, and stopping at the Bountiful Temple multiple times to just sit and ponder or do a session and pray to know what to do.  I applied for a job, and they really liked my work, but ended up saying that they couldn't afford me, and kept my house design I did for them.  Wonder if they ever built it?  It was awesome!  When I interviewed with them, I secretly was hoping that I'd get it, so I didn't HAVE to follow the impressions I was receiving, because that was too scary! How horrible is that?!  I think that's the first time I ever admitted that.  When it fell through, I decided I'd need to move forward on faith, and told SFD that when I was supposed to be going on vacation to DC, I was actually not coming back.  I think we were mutually thrilled with that prospect. 

So, I started Designs by Pyper in October 2008.  I'm so grateful I did, even though there have been so many scary things, since.  It was perfect for being able to take care of Grandma.  There's no way that I would've ever been able to spend part of every day with her, had I worked in Salt Lake everyday.  I know that she was a major reason to do it, when I did it.  It was amazing!  I remember shortly after she passed away that I knew it was time for me to be more proactive in all facets of my life.   Then the economy tanked.  Work was so slow! And it hadn't been much before then.  Somehow I made it, though, and have been able to do so many things! 

Anyways, I've been in the need of something else.  Not that I'm quitting anything, but more income would be great and very helpful, and I need to be out of my house more.  I absolutely love the freedom that I've had, and giving up some of it is difficult for me.  I've been trying to figure out what I could possibly do, and not work nights, weekends,and still be able to make piano work.  It's been this big stress for me, because I could easily find something that was 10-6 or something like that, but I've not been wanting to let my piano students down or their parents.  I had lost half of my studio last summer, which has never happened before.  While trying to figure things out, I told myself I'd give it until January 1st, and if I didn't get enough new students, I'd have to quit entirely.  I felt so horrible about doing it, but charging as little as I do for piano, it just wasn't cutting it.  The last week of December I got a number of calls for piano, and I'm now back to teaching every day.  It still isn't as much as I used to have, but I really can't go any later into the evening, so one day I applied at Home Depot.  What a weird thing!  I thought, hey it deals with homes, and I deal with homes, and I didn't want to go completely away from design, but didn't want to work anywhere where it would be a conflict of interest.  So, I applied, and really didn't think anything more of it.  Then they called and did a phone interview, and said I might hear from them again.  Well, I did, and the hours are 6:00 a.m.-2:30 p.m..  It works perfectly to still teach piano.  It's only a few days a week, so I have the other days to and afternoon/nights to do interior design.  I have to say that as I left the interview, I knew I was going to be offered the job, and I was sad and scared!  Weird, huh?!  I was nervous about how in the world I could do all that I do, and do this, too, and ever sleep. 

The fact is that Designs by Pyper has been keeping me busier than ever before, and my sort of announcement on that blog, has brought me some great possibilities, too.  I get to decorate a wedding at the end of the month.

So, when I got the call that I got this part-time job, I got off the phone and bawled.  I used to hardly ever cry, and that's the reaction to so many emotions lately!  I was feeling completely overwhelmed.  I had a priesthood blessing, and I'm so grateful for that! 

Today was my first day there, and pretty much all of it was watching web training videos, which was way difficult to stay awake for, seeing that I got up at 4:30, and yes I fell so deeply asleep during one part in between me clicking "next" (so it wasn't very long) I dreamt that Toby Keith was going to come present at my upcoming conference.  How crazy is that!?  I had to keep standing up and changing positions.

Anyways~  I've been able to get so much accomplished today, and it ended up being a fantastic day!  I'm so grateful to see prayers being answered!