Do you ever just feel you've reached your limit? Like if you could just run away, for a day or two, you would be back and ready to go? That's how I feel right now!

I have missed out on three family vacations this year because of work. This weekend I could be at my cousin's wedding in Montana or another cousin's baptism in St.George. There's a Real game in Colorado, and I've always wanted to do a road trip to a game. Instead, I'm working 16 extra hours then I was hired to work, wishing I was anywhere else.

I know, totally not a big deal, but I really want to go somewhere fun. Soon!

At the gym...

Last night while I was at the gym there were these two people on the treadmills in front of me. They sounded like they'd been friends for years, not super close, but friends still. The girl is a convert to the church, and the guy has been a member his whole life. (You learn a lot while you're working out near loud talkers ;) .)

At first they were talking about dating and their YSA ward (a young single adult ward is a group or congregation between the ages of 18-30 that are single members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints). It was funny to hear the same things going on there that happen in the MidSingles.

Then the conversation turned to her conversion story, and how she gained her own personal testimony. I loved hearing it! Hearing her strength gave me a little boost of the strength. She talked about her dreams, plans, and expectations for her future. She reminded me of me, back before I knew of a lot of the hardships that are out there. I found myself wishing I was more like her back then, I still struggle sometimes opening up to people, but I'm way more open than I was when I was her age.

Anyways, it was so great to see this example of someone who knew who she is, and where she is going! Someday she's going to be an awesome young women's leader!

Trust

I learned a lesson the other day that I think Someone has been trying to teach me for a very long time! It's actually a lesson that I learn over and over again, but tend to lose sight of it over and over again. Sometimes I'm amazed with that. Why can't I learn my lesson, and just move forward? I don't know, but hopefully I get a bit better each time I go through this.

I'm okay. I'm happy. Things aren't how I pictured them to be. I don't know why things have been so different from how I dreamed them and what I planned. Lately I've been seeing posts on Facebook that say things like,  "Now I know that Heavenly Father's plan for me is so much greater than I had planned, because of this little miracle" or something to that effect. I'm very happy for them, and that they have their miracles.

In a combined lesson at church with relief society and elders quorum a few weeks ago, the instructor wanted us to discuss, with our neighbors, our successes. The first thing that my good friend mentioned were his kids. This is where my mind goes first, too. I think of all of the successes in my life, but the fact that I haven't had a marriage and kids always makes me think, "I'm successful at these things, but..." I think it's just part of growing up here, where everyone gets married and has their whole family by my age.

On my birthday I was talking with my uncle and some of his kids. I was telling them about what I do with the MidSingles, and where/how I see myself in relation to that. I realized that for the first time in a long time, I felt completely comfortable talking about all of that, and didn't feel like half a person around them. How weird is that to feel like you don't count, because your circumstances aren't like what everyone expects.

There's no need to feel like that. I doubt anyone, besides maybe one or two people that have to constantly point out that there's something wrong with me, because of my circumstances, that would ever think of me like that. I don't need to think of myself like that, either.

I guess in my own way, I received my own little miracle, too.