Once upon a time there was a girl that had lots of dreams.  As she grew up her dreams changed with her, as she changed.  However, her biggest dream remained the same.  Through many experiences, that dream has not come to pass.  She's had many amazing experiences that she never would have had, had her dreams come true when she planned they would.

Now many years later, as once again, that dream was crushed, she struggles with what to do next.  Where is she going?  How does she overcome this?  The usual answers aren't helping this time around.  Her friends, at least that she thought were friends, are so busy with their own lives that she feels abandoned.  She wonders what she could have done differently in the situation at hand and in her friendships that appear so distant.  Reflecting back to the situation, she has no regrets, with her behavior, she regrets trusting.  Trusting someone that had been a part of her life for many years, but his role had changed, and she trusted him.

Now it's a new beginning, and a different path.  That path just appears to be blocked.  Life is hard.  I am grateful for a family that supports me so much.  My mom, brother and his family are such a comfort, even if none of us know what to do next.  I'm so grateful for a little guy that sends me messages right at the right time.