One time I was given a priesthood blessing at the beginning of a new calling-or responsibility- at church. In it, I was blessed with a love for the scriptures, and that I would have a desire to learn what the scriptures have in store. I remember as a young woman reading the required reading for seminary, and that's as far as it went. Then after college, I had a job where I worked with many people with different beliefs than I had, and this desire to learn as much as I could, so I could figure out where I was and where I was going was born. I'd read all the time, at my desk, when work was slow. I was grateful for that time. Anyways, I had this desire to read that was new to me. So, fast forward to present day. I love reading the scriptures, and with my current calling, I've been able to learn so much about the Old Testament, and now the New Testament.
Two nights ago, I started reading the Book of Mormon, again. I read in 1 Nephi 4:31 "And after the angel had departed, Laman and Lemuel again began to murmur saying: How is it possible that the Lord will deliver Laban into our hands?..." This is just after an angel had spoken to them, and told them that the Lord would provide the way. Every time I've read this verse, I always think, 'how dumb were they- they just had an angel tell them'. This time it meant something different to me. I'm like Laban & Lemuel. I haven't had any angelic visitors, but I've received personal revelation- just for me - and then I say to myself shortly after, 'How the heck could that happen?' I'm them. Wow! I need to work on that!
There's this difference between being faithful and having faith. I'm faithful, but do I have faith? I do in many aspects of my life, not in all. This week has been one of those weeks of reflection. Interesting! I'm grateful for the scriptures, and that I have learned to relate those ancient books to my life.
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