I started working with a trainer three weeks ago at the gym, and just had a realization yesterday...  When I got started, we talked about my diet, and have changed things up.  Because I was drinking so much Mountain Dew at the time, she said to cut down, but not completely.  Well, I've had very little, but some every once in a while.  Well, yesterday, I wasn't feeling very good, and knew that the cure for the pain is a mountain dew and a few ibuprofen.  So, I went to Maverick and bought an x-small mountain dew fountain drink.  Guess what has happened...  I didn't like it!  I was so sad!  I know it's the best for me, but I couldn't believe that in just 3 weeks, I am over Mountain Dew.  Proud of myself?  Yes! 

Missing people...

So, it has been 14 months since Grandpa Ross passed away.  I've been missing him SO much!  When I was packing for Snowbird, I started grabbing movies that he'd want to watch, without even thinking.  Needless to say Italian Job did not make the cut this year.  I don't remember doing this last year, and I know this was our second year up there without him.  A couple nights ago, I had a dream about him.  It was a really weird dream about me helping someone out at our Back to School Bash that's coming up this weekend, and no one came.  (Hopefully it wasn't a sign of things to come :))  Anyways, all of a sudden he was there sitting in a lawn chair, and I ran to him like a little girl, and said that I'd missed him so much!  We talked for a while, and he told me he loved me, and that he wasn't going to leave me again, and then right after that, he said he had to leave for a while, and he was gone.

It has been 8 months and 12 days since Grandma Mamie passed away.  I've been so grateful not to be driving behind the Apple Village bus.  There for a while, everywhere I went it was in front of me, and I'd just break down bawling.  This week has been interesting, though.  Yesterday at Maverick, one of her CNA's was there.  It was one from the place we had her in last.  (I can't even remember the name of the place, weird.)  She was the one who kept telling us it was going to happen any second, and to not go anywhere without the phone.  Seeing her made me physically sick.  Then, today, while playing the piano at McKay-Dee, her hospice nurse walked in, and I was so excited to see her.  It's so weird that so many people were such a major part of our lives, but are gone now.  It seems like we lost a lot of people, when we lost that cute little Grandma.  On Sunday, I'm playing a musical number in Apple Village's sacrament meeting.  We'll see if I can get through that without crying my eyes out!  :)

SNOWBIRD...

Every week 32 our family goes to Snowbird.  My mom and dad bought a time share up there when they were expecting me.  Lots of people make New Years' resolutions, well I make Snowbird resolutions.  I didn't have a lot of time to think about it this time, being busy playing with the kids.  I'm not complaining, I totally love them!  It was so much fun getting to see so much of their individual personalities.  Ford has the best imagination I've ever witnessed, and is always planning something!  Everett is so logical, and plays a tough guy, but really isn't.  Adelynn is a riot, and she knows it!  We had a lot of fun getting to slide on the Alpine Slide and the tram.  They jumped on jump houses and stuff, and loved it!  There were only two things I didn't do that I really wanted to, ride the Zip Line and sit down at the edge of the river and relax.  This time was the first time I came down the mountain during the week.  I came home for my institute class and went out to dinner with Amy.  It was great!  Next year we'll hopefully be able to get a new room.  The room we have had forever was perfect for Collin, Mom, Dad and me.  Next year there will be a new baby, and when I eventually have a family, there's definitely not going to be room for all of us!

Anyways~ back to my new goals... I'm not going to tell you :)  I can just say that I feel very happy about the future, not that I'm really knowing what that holds.  I can tell you that I'm going to step up on Designs by Pyper.  I've been slacking during the summer, so I've really got to get moving! 

One goal is to get past this dumb shyness of mine.  I've improved, but I have a long ways to go.