So, it has been 14 months since Grandpa Ross passed away. I've been missing him SO much! When I was packing for Snowbird, I started grabbing movies that he'd want to watch, without even thinking. Needless to say Italian Job did not make the cut this year. I don't remember doing this last year, and I know this was our second year up there without him. A couple nights ago, I had a dream about him. It was a really weird dream about me helping someone out at our Back to School Bash that's coming up this weekend, and no one came. (Hopefully it wasn't a sign of things to come :)) Anyways, all of a sudden he was there sitting in a lawn chair, and I ran to him like a little girl, and said that I'd missed him so much! We talked for a while, and he told me he loved me, and that he wasn't going to leave me again, and then right after that, he said he had to leave for a while, and he was gone.
It has been 8 months and 12 days since Grandma Mamie passed away. I've been so grateful not to be driving behind the Apple Village bus. There for a while, everywhere I went it was in front of me, and I'd just break down bawling. This week has been interesting, though. Yesterday at Maverick, one of her CNA's was there. It was one from the place we had her in last. (I can't even remember the name of the place, weird.) She was the one who kept telling us it was going to happen any second, and to not go anywhere without the phone. Seeing her made me physically sick. Then, today, while playing the piano at McKay-Dee, her hospice nurse walked in, and I was so excited to see her. It's so weird that so many people were such a major part of our lives, but are gone now. It seems like we lost a lot of people, when we lost that cute little Grandma. On Sunday, I'm playing a musical number in Apple Village's sacrament meeting. We'll see if I can get through that without crying my eyes out! :)
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